Think

Future. . . A word, a thing, a phase of life, that I'm looking forward to, that I'm scare of, that I'm don't want it to come, some times I just wish it can just remain like this, this normal peaceful phase and not getting any further ahead. 

23 years of my life pass just like that, looking back at it, thinking. . . What had I did, what could had been done and what I'm planning to do. . . 23 and nothing big at all. . . Will I ever leave my name in history? That's a big aim to achieve. . . 

Been starting out to make plans for future , planning to gather people that are good in their abilities to form a team . . . But yet again often wonder . . . I need them but do they need me? What in for them in working with me? What am I strong in, to them? 

I still not yet master any skill of my owe kind . . . A all rounder I think? Know everything but master of none . . . 

Saw a re-tweet a few days ago, "I just want to be someone's favor friend" keeps me thinking a lot recently . . . Am I? 

I'm not even sure am I a good friend. . . 

I don't trust people that much this days. . . After all my childhood, it's just too hard for me to HTHT with anyone now days . . .scare of people laughing at me . . . people making fun of me. . . my childhood was a total nightmare. . . i just need someone to love . . . someone to hug . . . To sum it all, I'm just weird . . . 

Anyway plans had been made, one way or another I'm still going to pitch to them and gather the strong ones and built an empire and leave a legacy behind with my name in history before I turn into dust itself. 

Please make it work, for my plan, for my future, for my life