Ice Cream story. Reminder for me to work hard and not to stop climbing

A teenage boy sold me 2 box of ice cream for $16, u may say I'm stupid or dumb, but cause he say it's for his studies for ITE, not sure is truth or not, but that's not the point, I came from ITE and make it up to poly and I can tell u it's not easy! The stress of wanting to get into a poly and the looks of people looking at u cause yours from ITE. I have my own point of views and u have yours, U will never know if his telling the truth or not? What if its real? What if its fake? Money earn and spend, it's a common process right? As long as u think yours spending on the right thing and right choice :) u may think I'm buying ice cream here, but if u think that way, I'm sorry to say u don know me or get my point. I'm buying a chance for this young man, even if the story may turn out fake. But I'm also buying a story ;) my own life story.

This is a reminder for me to continue work hard and not to stop.

i promised that i will put in my 200% in studies :) 

and i will.

I don't get it

I don't get it why?

I really don't, 

Why did it turn out this way? 

Was all this my doing? I really don't know.

How can view a person for how many chat he has with girls?

Not trying to say your judging me or what but i feel that it's not right to have a impression due to that right?

I'm not angry really, instead i'm just feeling sad more.

I started my working life at the age of 15.

My boss was a female, my colleges are all female. 

I was working in a bubble tea shop.

At 16 i move on to Service line in Hotels, i was working in a agency company, so i run around different hotels, pubs and restaurants island wide.

at age of 17, i was promoted as a "Lead" to bring new comers and look after them, so i'm the Point of Contact for them.

I studied in ITE at age of 16, my project team was all females, so are my best friends. 

At age of 18 i move on to my NS life, went into air force.

Till here most of my contacts are mostly females, to say the truth it's much more better working with females then males sometimes really. 

They are much more details and though full. 

They don't make fun of you, they treat every friendship with care.

That's why most of my friends are female.

After NS at the age of 20, i started working at USS.

My first attraction was Jurassic Park, most of the crews there were female, 

My Leads, All female.

Shortly i was promoted to Lead, and yes, i have to work with my Leads.

Then i move to another attraction at Shrek 4D, where i know more people.

And at Shrek 3 out of 5 are females.

What i'm trying to say is, yes i have a lot female friends but then that does not reflects me as flirt, 

I don't delete my whatsapp chat, i have clients outside too cause i'm a freelancer editor and cameraman.

I really don't know why has this become like this, i feel that our friendship is fading. 

I try to chat but it's not like the same as it's use too.

I'm really sad and scare that i lose u as a friend.

But just to let you know, you did hurt me once. Maybe it's unintentionally but it do really hurts.

O well, not everyday is a raining day :)

Tml shall be a better day.

Maybe some day i'll find the right one,

someday. . .

maybe . . .

:)

Busy Busy Bee

Holiday is coming to an end and once again i'm going to be a busy bee once again :/ 

Hopefully i will have time for my family and friends, hope my bad habit of shutting down communications when i'm too busy don't hit me :/ always can't change that bad habit man. . . . 

Next week will be my last week of holiday and i'm looking forward for it as going to spend time with friends and love ones, my last week of enjoyment ? hahaha hope so 

i'll miss all my daughters jessie, xue ling, angel and wan fen. 

i'll miss working in shrek and JPR.

i'll miss working in USS.

i'll miss meeting you.

i'll miss sleep.

Year 2 coming!!

Took up Dip Plus in Film Making

Having Extra course, Learning Nuke software

Having up coming projects like music matters

Having 2 upcoming oversea trips too 

Having plans of running and training too

Having plans of going back Lights & Shadow to work as Freelance

Having Plans of opening up my own Studio by end of year 3

Planning to put in 200% in school

Planning to train to be a good producer

This are all my plans and targets!

I really wish i can get every single one of them done, not even one is been miss out.

Recently been so call conducting training for Grp 2 spiel for new crews,

feel i'm back alive in the attraction again 

i'm always more willing to teach if your willing to learn.

Taz told me that i'll be a lead in Shrek too, not sure it's a good or bad news.

If i success means i'm lead for both JPR and Shrek 4D

Will reflect quite good in my resume? i think?

Well i would say my work life, not that bad. 

Then my love life?

well then, maybe it's not the time yet?

There's this gal i like, this silly gal.

But then it's just a one sided feeling.

  Not sure if she does now but then i don't think she does, 

Sometimes i hate thinking too much, it's bad for the brain and heart,

maybe it's me thinking too much ? maybe ? 

She's really cute and silly.

Not sure how i am to her.

She treating me more like a brother now

good or bad? 

i'm not sure about it but then at least we are still friends and for that i'm really happy about it.

Constantly reminding myself that don't think too much and hold back those feelings. 

What you have now is more then enough, 

Treasure what i have now is the best choice.

What is yours will be yours Charles.

But then again, some things in life you have to fight for it in order to gain it.

Shall i? Shall i not? It all now lays in mystery.

I sometimes wish that there will be someone who will msg me once in awhile to check me out.

Know when i'm feeling down or can even tell from the way i speak.

I wish that there is someone that knows me inside out.

Why are cancers so good in hiding there feelings? 

Cause we hide in our shells? 

Good or Bad?

I sometimes really wishes that whenever i hide the unhappiness with my smile, there will be someone out there to know how i feel inside, behind that smile of mine.

I really wish.

I really do.

I treasure my life and what i been through, made who am i today :) 

For that i'm happy and proud about it.

Once my mei asked me, why am i so positive thinking and always smiling.

Well, who says i don't have problems of mine? 

I still a human right? I do feel jealous, envy, sad and angry. 

But how and why i'm always smiling is what i choose to be.

It's all in the mind, all in the mind.

You choose and decide how you want to feel and how you want to live your life through that situation.