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Great ! Just great !!! Another friend lost!!!! Idiot!!!!

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Sun is the best day of the week :D got to spend time with friends church and god :D Today learn so much sia , doing extra mile, giving more and walk bit more further :O hah so glad to came church today :D o o and saw Chuan Ying haha kind of stun but also glad :D it's been Ages I last saw her I think haha need to chat with her more haha been so busy -__- I really need to plan my time more better. If I don spend time with my friends I'll lose them one by one :( come on Charles give more than normal and do extra ok :D

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Well this pass few weeks have been great :D thanks to god I'm blessed by him :D I'm doing qt more often and building this relationship more and more closer :D Sometimes I wonder am I really des to get into a relationship ? I would say yes! I nvr in my life had a proper relationship, I'm not des to go into a relationship because i want a gal badly, it's because I'm kinda alone , all by alone to be actual :( I have alot of friends. Really alot :) and I'm glad but close friends not that much :( wat I really wan is a person who says morning good night to me, care and take care of me says I love u Charles to me, know when I'm ok and not ok, that's the thing, I'm a cancer !! It's super hard to know wat a cancer is thinking and u will not see a soft part of a cancer :) we are strong people but same time also weak people, we just don show it, we are always smiling to cover wats inside, I wan to look for a gal who knows and understand wat I'm feeling inside, but most importantly accompany me:) I wan someone close to me to talk to, and share my thoughts with. I can nvr share all this to my family ! They don even care! Talk to friends? Neh bad idea ! Who can I speak to? My close friends have bf, they can be accompany me, that is wat happen to my god Sis! I lose her because I was too close to her and her bf . . . I leave her not because I was wrong! I din think wat I did was wrong! Ur my Sis after all odor not real sister but I treat u like a real Sis, I dont wan u to choose and make u a hard time. Telling to leaders and pastor? Neh we are close but not to the extent of this close :( Hai looking at all the couple and friends Bf/gf just make me feel so alone :( Well at least I still have god and blog :D which I can pray to and write to. O o today and last fri was the best day :D spend dinner with amanda :) chit chat with her and spend time with her, today was Stanley wedding when to meet Amanda first and was Wao 8D Amanda is just so beautiful :) wanted to tell her but nvm :( haix I wish I stand a chance to be with her but -_- wat am I thinking -_- she studies in uni, have more smart looking and fitter guys to look for -_- y me hahaha silly me !!! Arrrr she is still Single I think and I hope :) but . . . Neh !! I still won't have a chance dor hahaha well at least I can spend time with her :D send her to sir-ran-goon mrt after the wedding :D was glad that I did. She says I'm wasting time travel here and there but I don think so, I can see u for one more min one more sec :D that's not wasting, wats call wasting is theres a chance for me to see u longer and I don do it, that's call wasting. Im not sure where the she knows I like her anot but again . . . Hahaha Well wat I write here I don wish any one to see, it's more like for me to talk to 'someone' to make me feel better haha I've remove my blog link in fb le to prevent people reading it haha :D but if there is still some one reading it right now. I just want to say thank you for reading :D despite I remove my link u still able to read :D means ur caring and want to know about me more, that's wat I think so thank you :D Haha but some how I still wish Amanda will be the one reading :D haha but I know, that's so not goner to happen -_- hahha silly me :D