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I will be nvr good enough for u all, no matter how much i change.

Pastor always says honour your parents, honour your parents.

But how to honour them when they are just like tat. . . .

no matter how much i try to change its always nvr good enough for them, all they do is only complain after complain after complain.

tat is the very reason y i always go out, and return home late, the more i stay at home the more stress i have, every few mins i'll hear u call my name, you all are just so negertive people, just only know how to say : ar ya u cant make it one la, wat is the use, no point lor,

u don even have confident in ur child, than how do think the child would think,

but god did not lose hope in me, he give me pastor and my leaders, to teach me and guide me through this life, put me in the right path again,

and also constenly taking to me, this few days well, i was not in a very good mood.

i msg to alot of my friends to find them to chat, but very few reply.

maybe they are really busy, but the best part is, god talk to me during this few days : D

i'm really happy and tat really made my day, i remember one day when i was doing house work,

god just told me : put god first and god will put u first.

god really is there and always there for me. in bus, on the way home, going to camp and when i'm alone. i can really feel him : D

some times i just feel like smiling or the sudden cause i know his with me and i can feel it.

well i guess tat i just have to try harder to change, i know god will help me. but i myself have to try harder first : D

i really love wat i have now, my church, my pastor, my leaders, my friends,

i just feel like giving them all a big big hug hahaha but i think they will stun if i do tat : D

i really love u god, for all u have do and to keep me accompany at all times, i will change to a better person, u have not give up on me, and so i will not give up myself.

thank you god.