Nights

I feel that I should post this before I sleep.
Feeling moody lately without work occupying me, thinking of u all day, wanting to text u so badly but then again I'm scare to do so, hoping to see u or even at least Skype with u.

How I miss I could study with u, spend time with u, watching u do ur work and u watch me do mine.

Today I feel really down, don even want to go out at all, everytime I look at u online Skype and looking at my phone hoping u could at least pop me a msg, but in the same time I know that's not going to happen.

Today I took out the letters u once write for me, not sure u still came mine anot :(
I read the first one when we were officially together :) I felt the joy that I was feeling that day, I felt the love from u from that letter from that day, I truthfully miss them, ur love ur care ur heart.

Then I read the 2nd letter, the one where we ended our relationship, I did not want to read it at the first place cause I scare I may cry out again but then thinking so wat if I tear?

So I carry on, while reading it till the ending part I did tear, i know I broke ur heart fully that day, those words u use, those line I read through one by one, I hurts me so much.

I want to throw that letter away as it reminds me losing u, u that was important to me till now u still are. But then this are the only letters u gave me, the only things left from u and also the lama key chain.

I miss u calling me 10-10 and spongebob, i miss ur smile, the smile that show that ur happy to see me, I miss ur hug and the smell of ur hair, I really do.

I won't give up, I won't ! I really want u back and I really do. I want u back in my arms. I love u