i don understand

i don understand... i really don understand y u need to hate me for .... at-z-ker-ly wat did i did wrong to make u hate me ...... so if u hate me so much so do i ...... after all those days u tell me tat we are not together .... WTF does u mean by tat means only me acted like a fool at this time ...... and u say u dont even hav feeling to me ...... is it real or is it just using it to make me angry ..... this time is de 2nd time first was R***** now u .... i dont know wat to do now ....i feeling wan to cry but i cant.... now days i need to use my own smile to cover this pain of my..... i don wan to let anyone knows about it ..... i even thing of changing my own link ..... just to not let my friends know ..... bt i love this link so much ..... its a word made for and by my first class of students .... i lov u so much ..... i really misses FP i dont know how are u doing now...... maybe u still hate me or already forget leh ...... i also hav dumb thinking of being a M*** lol ........ just to not hav an relationship forever lol wat a dumb thinking lol ..... for now my heart is so pain i just don know wat to do ....... i wish there is someone to talk to ...... i really don know wat to do now ....... bt on de good side i still hav my friends XD my" WORLD BEST BOSS", MY REAL BOSS, MY SMALL SIS OR BRO(last time call little bro now call sis lol) and MY WORLD BEST BIG SISTER...... I LOV MY BIG SISTER AND I MEETING HER THIS FRIDAY XD........ I LOVE U ALL TOO FRIENDS , BOSSssssss AND SISssssss....... if i don hav u guys i think i will go senjar there and go climb 30 story hight and than look down and than hav xin li preparation and than weeeeeee........ here i go ..... see u people down there at story one .............................................................
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(run up and down ,up and down,till i get FIT )-.-''


...... i wont jump la........ i wont give my life to a person tat nvr even love me ..... i will only give it to people i love and people tat love meXD